Difficulty

Not sure if I can do it anymore. I am putting all I have into it and putting it to the test. I have so much I want to live for but it just has been so difficult to do it the way I WANT to do it. I think I need to let go and live life the way I NEED to. I know who I am but it seems as though I haven't been living me out lately. I have been hidden in a corner. Freedom crys out to me and I choose not to listen. However, I feel independence right around the corner. Now is my time to trust in the LORD and in the LORD alone. He is the only thing getting me through! He is the only one that truely takes the time to understand me and will ever truely understand me. I was in a session with God tonight at this concert I went to and it was amazing. I felt like ME for the first time in along time! I LOVED IT! I need to go back there more often. I have decided to go to adoration on thursday. I need that too.
Is it coming time? Do I really want to? What do I need? What do I want?? Obviously I want happiness, however I don't think happiness wants me. LOL. I feel apart and I need to put myself back together.
The end of my ramblings. On to a new week and new difficulties.
Lindsey